Story of A Friendship lost in time........

Hold my hand and Lets step back in time,
To a place we left far behind,
A time where we were part of each others lives,
When there were no lies
And no awkwardness in our minds,

A time when we understood each others softest sighs,
As well as the thoughts hidden behind our all knowing smiles,
I bet these memories are etched somewhere too in your mind,
And you too must wonder where these moments got lost in time,
Did our friendship really die??

For a long time I thought I had moved on with my life,
And you weren’t really a part of these thoughts of mine,
Your Memories were something that I locked away deep inside,
And so Never really cared what happened with your life
I was Just pretty content achieving all my highs,

Maybe I just didn’t want to try,
Believing that the fault was never mine,
& that our friendship was best buried in the sands of time,
so I got on with this life, not having any reasons to cry
I built up my false pride,

All I had were reasons to smile,
And so many people I could call mine,
I couldn’t care less that you weren’t part of this life of mine
But I should’ve known that Karma would soon strike,
And Man did karma ever hit my life,

I lost a soul mate without a crime,
Almost lost this life of mine,
And for the first time,
In a really really long while
My eyes searched for you to stand by side,

Its then that I woke up to the reality called life,
& I wanted build back all the bridges I had burnt in time,
And not just with you but all the people I had left behind,
Because of certain wrong notions of mine,
Wish I could go back in time,

And change all my wrongs into a right,
Because now even though I am ready to try,
The level of awkwardness between us is just too high,
Some bridges aren’t supposed to be mend, no matter how hard you try,
I guess I just waited too long to say hi,

Now all I hope is when the time comes,
For me to wish this life,
Its final goodbye,
You remember me not for my crime,
But with a lovely smile……

my fight back

LIFE: a fight back!!!


I wrote this poem when i had entered a really bad phase of life academically....more of self motivation....

The morning shone bright,

Life was beckoning me with all its might,

Nature proclaimed its imperial immensity,

And every thing was brilliant in the city,

Happiness was all around,

There was no reason to be bound.

Success I thought had already been achieved,

Was I a fool to accept the fallacy of the deed?

To be complacent was a big mistake,

Joy and elation - my work - made me forsake,

The danger so great, my body did ache.

The harsh reality, seriously, made me shake.

I was all lost in a deep, deadly lake.



I was in the gloom of the despairing journey,

It was like existence on a gurney.

The excruciating pain of a spineless expedition,

To come was failure, defeat, and agitation.

Survival was a burden and life but a complication,

How do I get out of this was the most pertinent question.

Acceptance drove the fear away,

To confront was the only way.



Life is a pillar, absolutely vertical on ascent,

So difficult it gets, I feel my body dent.

My sinews crack and perseverance seems to lack,

The effort so immense, I am taken aback.

Life without a purpose is to dance in a trance,

A meaningless voyage in a wide expanse.

It might be like losing my head,

Hard work and dedication ensure a good night sleep on the bed.

To rest is a cardinal sin,

Relaxing would throw my efforts into a bin.

A small mistake may well be a blunder,

I might slip off with the sound of a thunder.

No doubt the weak do squander,

Iron mettle makes one part of the remainder.



The fruit of Eden keeps my motivation high,

To doubt my caliber, would make my mission die.

Not to rest until I reach the sky,

Is the reason-

I shall one day scale that high.

~spill it out~

Charity begins at home....
be careful while pointing towards somebody as your 3 fingers are pointing towards u only......
these phrases are taught to oneself at very basic level..... and i don't knw why do ppl yet forget these things
One thing i hate is the hue n cry all around wen u are silently eatin ur Ist meal of the day...
Had many a things in my stomach cud not spill them out coz it is better to b quiet at tym's when the condition is already worse...
equality shud b there n shud strictly follow fr everybody wether big or small..
a few cannot b made the bait every tym... n the volcano is bound to burst
n so it dis today....
n i have no regrets... i'm in full support... the thing thts wrong is wrong
u cannot make it correct every single tym....
no matter how gud a relation u share...
but according to my theory.... each tym such circumstances arise..
it increase the sting of the venom in a relationship...
might b not visible now... but it surely wud be .... later....

this is my silent protest fr my di....

feeling suicidal

Feeling suicidal. The only thing that holds me into this fucked up world is the pain that I feel... Diagnoses by doctors (psychiatrics): depression, social phobia, panic.... blah! I enjoy my pain as much as kids enjoys icecream!
And if I'm to die, it better be by my own hands.

I don't feel suicidal anymore right at this moment. I'll feel suicidal again today. But I'm just not sure if I should stop suffering yet. Being who I am: the biggest statement of plesure and pain. And I don't know if I am ready yet to let go of my pain.

I'll cut myself... I like when the red water comes out of me. And I am left all alone. Nobody gets that all that I need is all that never existed: love! And I do believe in love (something that doesn't exists), so maybe I am a little psychotic too... At least borderline.

I don't know if anybody here feels the same, if so, say something about it. If not, say whatever too...

All I know is that pain is my only loyal companion. My only trully friend.

"THIS WICKED WORLD MAKES ME WANT TO CRAWL"

♥DEATH OF LOVE....♥

I've burnt myself with helplessness,
I can't go through this anymore,
You have left me for someone else,
It's something I can never endure.

My eyes have gone numb,
I've forgotten how to live,
I still don't understand,
Is love what I wasn't able to give?

My voices crack in solitude,
My palms only show lines of sorrow,
Why weren't you happy enough?
I never wanted to see this tomorrow.

In your love I still live,
Although I don't know how to,
But I'm trying to find out a reason,
Before we say our final adieu!

I lay here half dead,
My eyes see nothing but water,
My heart cannot feel its own beat,
My dream world lays shattered.

My heart is broken into such tiny pieces,
That they can pass through a needle's hole,
I always tried to keep you happy,
And that, was my only goal.

Your essence still stays in my eyes, my dream, my soul,
When i bing my hand close to you, you vanish away,
I don't see you in the mirror with me now,
My world has drowned in my tears that sway.

Happiness has somehow abandoned me,
Time is isappointed with me,
How can i move without you?
On my own, I'd never wanted to be.

I lay on the floor like broken glass pieces,
Giving a different reflection in every piece,
My soul is deeply crying inside all alone,
Now it has no other wish but to release.

My lips have gone dry,
Like the desert sand cracks,
My fake smiles remind me of you,
You are what my smile lacks.

I don't know how to get out of it,
I always thought you'll be here to help me,
But now I stay here all alone in the dark,
My stars have lost their shine indeed.

My heart is burning down and is almost dead,
My blood can now no longer retain the colour "red",
The colour of love is no more in me now,
"I love you" is what you always said.

I stand like a statue in the rain,
My tears still make a diference in the falling drops,
Now I'm desolated in the dark,
And where I stand, no one stops.